He's so much sweeter than I deserve. This little guy, he makes my world go around! Why? Let me fill you in.
Kev is off on a much deserved guys' weekend. I'm so glad he could head off for this, because he works so hard for us and is so involved. I, however, entered the weekend exhausted. I truly wondered if I could handle the boys for the weekend while Kev was away. Normally it's no big deal, but I was coming off of my first week back to work and was so tired.
Rusty? That kid made it all better. On Friday night as I was tucking him in to bed he was saying his nightly prayers. I never tell him what to say, and I love this time. Sometimes he prays for his toys, sometimes friends or family members. It is always interesting to see what he will say. Friday night? Friday night melted my heart. After thanking God for his "beautiful Mommy and Daddy..." he finished off by saying, "And Jesus, please help me to be a good boy tomorrow!" Oh man, my heart just melted...and he was! He was AMAZING on Saturday. Sweet, helpful, loving, great at listening and obeying and SO funny! We had a wonderful day of skating lessons, a trip to the library, a walk and bike ride to Starbucks, dinner with Nana and Papa and great snuggles.
This morning, however, started off rough. Rocky had been up several times in the night-the poor boy is getting FOUR teeth at one time!-and I was soooo tired. I was in Rocky's room for the fourth time around 6:30 trying to get him back to sleep and suddenly Rusty came padding into the room. He walked up to me and said, "Mommy, I want you! I want you to snuggle me." I was alone and Rocky was ALMOST back to sleep. I said, "Rusty, please go to your room and wait for me, I'll be right there." At that point, I guess he just heard me rejecting him and burst into tears, which of course woke Rocky back up and he burst into tears. TOTAL lack of sleep and complete exhaustion led me to say, "GO! Go stand in the hallway and wait for me!" I just felt like I was losing it. He then started crying even louder, not understanding why his usually calm Mommy was acting so different.
I put Rocky into his bed-SCREAMING I might add-and took Rusty to his room. I sat down with him in the chair and explained to him that I had asked him to do one thing, to go and wait, and he had not listened to me. He had woken Rocky up and that was not okay. I said that I was so sorry for yelling at him, but that I needed him to listen and obey. I needed him to be my helper boy. After hugging him and making sure he was okay, I let him turn on his light to play quietly and went back into Rocky's room. Rocky was still crying and I picked him up and snuggled him in the chair. He was just settling in when I heard Rusty's door open again. Oh no...that was my thought. But then, he surprised me. I heard him walking somewhere and finally, saw him just standing outside of Rocky's door, waiting.
I came out and there he was, his pjs unzipped. He looked at me with this look of pride on his face and said, "Mommy! I had to go pee, and so I did! And I didn't flush so I wouldn't wake up Rocky! AND MOMMY! I waited outside of the room so I wouldn't wake him up!" I just leaned down to hug him so tight. I helped him zip his PJs and wash his hands, and then he looked at me with a huge smile and said, "OH! And Mommy? Mommy? I am going to have a GOOD ATTITUDE today!"
I couldn't help it. I just started crying. He then was looking at me strangely, possibly wondering what had happened to his mother. I grabbed him tightly and told him how much I loved him and what a sweet and wonderful boy he was. I then asked him if I could please snuggle with him for awhile. He agreed and we had the best snuggles together before we started our day.
So, you see, this boy is much sweeter than I deserve. He is such a blessing. He and his brother filled my heart with so much love, so many smiles, and so much laughter this weekend. There are so many moments where I simply cannot believe that God saw fit to allow me to be their mother. I think I am the most blessed woman in the world. I sure do love them!